Pregnancy terminate at age 28

I had this dark cloud over my head for some time now I’ve beat myself up for making a choice that I wasnt ready to make I tried to heal from the thought I tried to act like it didnt exist my mind goes crazy with a conscious I cant believe I gave life and took it away I think about it everyday what he or she would look like from him or her down to their feet oh the clothes I could pick out and barrettes I would put on her hair or if it was a boy what type of toys and boyish shirts I can find instead of pink what names wouldve fit their souls thinking like when they are cleaned up from the nurse their little tiny bodies I can hold sometimes I look back on would I’d make that decision differently would I have stuck it out and dealt with blacklash of the situation but than I think about it I wasnt ready for another baby I was getting back to myself my daughter just turned 2 years old and I was in a place in my life where I did not want to have babies back to back I didnt have the finances to support another life living at my moms house breaking out in hives stress coming from different directions all at the same time I could not put my other baby at risk than to resent them and take all my anger out in a child that didnt ask to be here now that I made that decision I lived with it and accepted what was done is done and I cant bring him or her back I can start over and keep every promise that I made to God I pray to him and said if you let me have another child I will keep this one and than 5. Years later I had my son.